Sunday, August 14, 2011

Big Shadows

I think this proverb just about says it all. Lately I have been hiding from rather large shadows, much like the ones I thought belonged to big hairy monsters under my bed when I was a little girl. I don't know about you but I certainly know that the looming shadows of worry can grip a person so tight that you can hardly breath.

The past few months I have been on a desperate search for a job; specifically one that will be flexible enough for me to attend holistic nutrition classes, study to be a personal trainer, teach a children's dance/workout class, and move forward towards my dream of helping women and children though grief and anxiety. Did I mention also be able to pay all my bills and have a life somehwere in the middle of all of that as well? It has been a very unsuccessful search thus far, but it has been my experience in the past that if I am patient and follow my heart ('gut') the perfect opportunity will come along, even if it's at the last moment.

It's so easy to spend endless hours a day worrying about what the future holds, but if I'm not careful I will worry myself into believing that the shadows being cast are going to eat me alive. Haha. At the end of the day the fact is that my energy spent worrying will not have changed a single thing, except for stealing precious time from me that I could be spending enjoying life.

Worry eventually leads to anxiety, panic, and generally an overall 'freak out' least in my own past experiences, haha. In the end- life turns out exactly as it was always meant to be and it's up to me to decide how I will wait it out and react to the end result. Maybe those big scary shadows will shrink just a little and turn into something quite surprisingly friendly :o).


Matthew 6:31-35

The Message (MSG)
 30-33"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
 34"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.


  1. First time I've had the opportunity to visit your blog and I think it's great!

  2. I'm so glad you like it :o).